[Trying to, anyway. He wants the burrito but his upset is having a field day with his insides, stomach knotting every time he thinks about the last things he said to her. They weren't kind to each other. Charged feelings mired in years of regret and self isolation on Jill's side, fear of loss on his side. They had a connection and that couldn't be ignored but what Carlos wanted out of the relationship and what Jill was willing to give weren't compatible but he wasn't able to just hold his tongue forever.
Maybe if it had been a simple matter of "I'm not attracted to you, I don't want to be with you like that" it would have been easier because he could respect that. Would have respected that! But she just kept going in circles and it was never about attraction, it was always about self worth and the scars left by Wesker and and and. He wanted to be the one to help her from that darkness but she was just too goddamn proud and it hurt.
Aisha's question earns a delayed nod. Actually he probably would have given the extent of that damned argument but probably not as quickly as he had. He at least would have tried to make it up to her, to apologize and clear the air before doing so.]
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Maybe if it had been a simple matter of "I'm not attracted to you, I don't want to be with you like that" it would have been easier because he could respect that. Would have respected that! But she just kept going in circles and it was never about attraction, it was always about self worth and the scars left by Wesker and and and. He wanted to be the one to help her from that darkness but she was just too goddamn proud and it hurt.
Aisha's question earns a delayed nod. Actually he probably would have given the extent of that damned argument but probably not as quickly as he had. He at least would have tried to make it up to her, to apologize and clear the air before doing so.]